Updated: Oct 17, 2021
I'm not going to lie. The last six months have taken me down through there. I cannot begin to tell you exactly how difficult my life has been since accepting this assignment that God placed on my life. I know that I have been known to drop off the radar and then "pop out" with stuff, but what looks like a pop out to everyone else, looks like a "struggle" life to me. It looks like going to bed late and waking up early. It looks like a barrage of random attacks from Satan. It looks like me questioning whether I really heard God or if I'm just crazy. It looks like literally crying and wiping away tears as I type. It ain't pretty. No one around you, no matter how well-intentioned they may be, truly understands the hell that you're going through. If I don't know anything else, I know for sure that the devil did not want me writing this book. As a matter of fact, the battle had gotten so intense, that God put me on the heart of a prophetic woman all the way in Canada. The process often made me feel as if I was being punished for something. Her words were oftentimes the only things that got me through, and I used them as a reminder that God hadn't forgotten about me. She didn't even know I was writing a book.
So I pushed through. I'm not exactly sure who needed this book. I'm not exactly sure what the devil was hoping to stop by stopping me, but I know one thing...it must be BIG. At one point, I was literally begging God to "Let this bitter cup pass!" LOL! I know, I'm nowhere near Jesus, but y'all it felt like I was taking some licks on behalf of this thing! But I just kept going, because I knew there was victory on the other side of this somewhere. So please don't let it be in vain. Maybe it's for just a few people, and maybe it's for the world. All I can say is that I did my part, and now it's up to God to do the rest. I'm not going to lie and say I had a blast writing this book, but I will say that the book is dope, and even better than my first one. So dear Lord, get this book out to whoever Satan didn't want to have it. If You use this book to bless me, thank You. But even if not, it was a privilege and an honor to be trusted to go to work for You in this manner. - Lori